The past two years have been HARD. I keep making choices that I feel like have been guided by God & then my life flips upside down. WHY? Why would Heavenly Father send me to Utah State to have the worst experience ever? Why would he send a category 5 hurricane to the smallest island ever & destroy everyone's lives? Why would he send me on a mission that I loved with my whole heart to get a brain injury & have to come home? Why did I have to experience crippling anxiety & post-traumatic stress? Why did all my hard work not pay off? Why is this all happening in what is supposed to be the most fun & free time of my life?
Some of those questions I've asked have been answered & some have not. Looking back it's all a blur but I know that I am now more Christlike & isn't that the ultimate goal? To be like Him! How can we become perfect, pristine diamonds without pressure, trials & the refiners fire? In the end the "why" doesn't really matter. I am so grateful for everything that has happened because I know it was apart of Heavenly Father's plan for me. I don't love the trials but I love the person I have become because of these experiences. I love Heavenly Father & fully trust him because of the person I am becoming.